i've spent a lot of my life on the fringe of society.

free time spent chasing dreams that may or may not come true.
regretting nothing, because all choices and pursuits have led me to this simple life.



Sunday, October 13, 2013

Racing the Sun: A DumbPhone Pemi Loop Account

I spent the last 15 minutes driving towards Lincoln Woods, worshipping the idea of a bathroom.
Too much coffee, and a Dunkin Donuts breakfast sandwich really wasn't sitting well. I was ready to unleash the fury.
Imagine my frustration when I run to the toilet to see this sign:


No worries. I would just maintain my old beliefs since high school that somehow, my body would absorb and use for fuel what I was supposed to expel. Or I would have to unleash that fury on the trail somewhere. Once I got over the fact that I wouldn't be sitting on porcelain on this morning, I prepared my pack for my Autumn Pemi Loop. Mittens, jackets, and way too much other clothing. It had only been a couple weeks ago, during my Summer Pemi Loop, done overnight, when I almost went to the hypothermia danger zone on Franconia Ridge.
The weather today would be warm, but memories of that scary night had some bearing on why there was now a clothing store in my pack. Notably, my camera was dead. I would be relegated to taking pictures from my awesome dumbphone.

As I made my way to the trailhead at 9:45am, I laughed as multiple cars pulled up, people rushed out of them, yanked on the bathroom door, and then made their way back to their vehicle as if they had just been the victim of a cruel prank.

In the last couple of months, I had done the loop a few times through the night. Not because I'm a lunatic...more out of necessity. The first time, was because Spring was ending and I ran out of days. The second time-when I almost froze- was just 3 weeks ago, a few days before the official end of Summer. With a busy Autumn ahead, I figured now was the time to get this one done. Finally, I was going to get a crack at running the Pemi during daylight.

The game plan was to run every section I could. I haven't been running a lot(aka none), but I figured I could at least walk when I was tired.

I opted for a clockwise run, thinking that getting Lafayette out of the way early, and saving the non-technical railroad bed for the end would be easier on the mind.


Up the Osseo Trail, I stopped on the ladders for my first de-layering. No more hat, no more long sleeve.
It was actually warm. Almost too warm. Leave it to the White Mountains to almost freeze me in the summer, and make me die of heat in the fall.


In a lot less than a 2 hours from the start, I had hit Flume. The foliage was past it's prime. Maybe that's why no one was there. I feared I'd be overrun by day hikers in jeans admiring colors. Thankfully, so far, I had the trail to myself. I walked across, looking down the Flume Slides, wondering why I hadn't been up that trail, ever.

The headphones began playing techno music from my ipod, which I don't listen to outside of teaching Spinning classes, but I was feeling good, so I vibed out to it. In what seemed like minutes later, I was standing on top of Liberty, eating my first "meal": Doritos, Vitamin Water, and Beef Jerky. It was still early in this thing, but I was STARVING. One dude on the other side of some rocks must have heard me scarfing this shit, thinking something was dreadfully wrong. I pictured him sitting still listening, trying not to move or make eye contact until I was gone. No worries buddy, this'll only take a couple minutes.


I literally ran to Little Haystack from there. The trail flows and isn't really technical. I was feeling good from the food, and now I was letting my pace get a little crazy. As I made my way towards Lincoln, I was a little bummed when my eyes spied blotches of color far ahead on the trail. HERE's where all the people are. I let my disappointment morph into competitive drive. All of a sudden, this was a race, and now I was going to pick off every one of these hikers, with their big packs and hiking poles, as quick as I could. Lincoln was littered with people. I couldn't stay there. On to Lafayette.




I arrived at the peak of Lafayette in about 3 hours time from the start, and didn't realize it, because no one was there. Awesome! Mo' food. Looking down at my shoes, now on their 3rd pemi, among other runs and hikes, I wondered if perhaps it was time to replace them? I don't know. I like the way my feet feel everything and the amount of control over where I step. The rubber has plenty of traction, and I can tiptoe over 2 inch roots. Try doing that in clunky trail runners.




After a nice solo meal, I looked down at Garfield, my old home. It looked so small as I sat up here, almost 500 feet higher. I wondered if the moose skeleton was still sitting there by the cliffs. Enough dilly-dallying. Time to go.


The trail was fast all the way across Garfield Ridge, but when I hit the pond and began the real ascent up the mountain, I found my first low.

Just placing one foot in front of the other and dealing with it, I arrived at the top, snapped a shot, and began my descent to the water source on the side of the mountain.


The thought of quitting as I arrived at the water source didn't enter my mind, but I was certainly on the ropes. My "meals" simply weren't enough. Chips and nuts and jerky just don't hold enough calories. On the Pemi Loop, I always, always hit Garfield feeling like crap. Always. There must be something magical in the water on the side of that mountain, because I always leave feeling like a champ. I made a playlist of every Pantera, Five Finger Death Punch, Hellyeah, Hopsin, and metal song on my iPod. The next hour and a half was a blur of running, bounding over rocks and trees, and passing groups of backpackers like they were walking backwards. Before I knew it, I was standing on top of South Twin, every bit as smoked as I was on Garfield.


Red Bull Time. I looked at my watch and realized that I only had a couple hours of daylight left, and my light was not my normal one. I had forgotten my headlight in Nicole's car when she went to work, so I detached my bike light and planned to use it if I HAD to run in the dark. I secretly hoped I would be done before sunset.

With this in mind, I really pushed it to the Bonds, running stuff I would normally hike. It seemed like only a few minutes passed before I was on top of Mount Bond.


I wasted no time there, even though I felt very tired. The talus and large rocks that was the "trail" was very mentally draining. Here was no place to break an ankle, 10ish miles from anything. The Ritz crackers in my pocket tasted like cardboard but I ate them anyway.

Finally, I was at the top of the final climb, before the long descent back to Lincoln Woods. It was a little after 5pm. I watched the sun start it's setting behind the mountains.

Running down the Bondcliff Trail, I figured I'd probably be in the dark on the flat and fast Wilderness Trail, but the forest became dark very quickly. About 15 minutes before I hit the Wilderness Trail, I came to a large blowdown which obscured the trail. Until this point, I could mostly make out the trail, but I wasn't going to wander around it in the dark and get lost. Pulling out my light, which had gotten wet on a bike ride a few days ago, I had a sinking feeling for some reason. I pressed the button. Sure as shit, the light turned on for a millisecond, and I was in the dark again. A small moment of panic.

I pressed the button again. The light came on, and then shut off as soon as my finger left the switch. I pressed the button over and over and over. Okay. I had manual strobe mode. Better than nothing, I guess. I spent the last 5 miles of the hike, running and holding the light in my hand, pressing the button a million times per minute, tripping over railroad ties and branches unseen in the dark moments of the strobe.

As I crossed the bridge and finished in about 9 hrs 50, I marveled at how this loop does not get easier with each time it is completed. Nonetheless, I enjoy this long loop because it is more than just a hike/run across many different landscapes. It is a journey into yourself. It feels and runs harder than any 50 mile run I have ever done. I shall continue to run this every season for many seasons to come, I hope.

Tentman, over and out! Thanks for reading!

kp

Monday, September 30, 2013

Caught



an orange sun
melts vanilla sky
i exit the building
and emit a sigh

their breeze brushes
my shirtless back
lost souls in metal shells
i fight the urge to attack

another mile drags on
i remain amongst cattle
despite the progress
my feeling's embattled

i run to escape
but somehow cannot
for no matter how far
i always get caught


kp

Monday, August 12, 2013

What If?

written on First World Renegades in April of 2013

Currently, the Facebook-o-sphere is blowing up with quotes and memes of goodness and positivity in retaliation to the bombings in Boston. I also just read of a mail attack that happened today: Ricin sent to a Senator.

This weekend, I ran a marathon at a fundraiser for the families torn apart by the Connecticut shooting. The speakers before, and the message throughout the run, was of overpowering evil with good deeds. It was a truly humbling event running past the mile markers, all with the victims' names written on them.

Maybe it's the renegade in me that generally goes against the population, but I see all of these positive messages and images and quotes from Gandhi all over the internet, and I can't help but think differently.
What if we are going about this the wrong way?
Stay with me.

I hate that all of these things are happening in our world right now. Perhaps we are missing something. Things aren't getting better as we continue to keep sharing a picture of a candle on Facebook, nor are they getting better because of our fundraisers after every major tragic event. Quite the contrary, actually, as we seem to be facing a new and larger crisis every month.

What if by being so positive, we aren't being real? What if we really are in dark times, and this fake light we attempt to cast takes our vision away from our goal of a better society? What if things need to get worse before they get better?

What if we fought evil with evil?
What if we treated savages with savagery?

What I am trying to say is...maybe at our root, we are really monsters, stuck behind the bars of societal expectations- limited by what the world thinks we should do. What if we are too civil?

What if we let the fake light fade, and allowed our own darkness to prevail when bringing criminals to justice?
What if we are more productive and powerful when angry?
What if it's time to let the beast out of the cage?

kp

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Evening Grind: Pemi Loop in 1 Night

It's 6:30 PM and I'm driving 80 MPH up I-93, singing and rapping loudly: amped.

An hour ago, I decided that I wanted to rip the Pemi Loop. It's a 32ish mile hike of brutal ups and downs, with technical hiking over 11 peaks- 9 of them official 4000 foot peaks. Most hike the Pemi in a long weekend of 3 nights- camping at Liberty Springs, Garfield Ridge, and Guyot Shelter before hiking out of the woods and going home.

I had been giving thought to doing it in one day for a long time. The opportunity hadn't really presented itself, with my often hectic schedule, so when I learned that I wouldn't be going to Maine for Father's Day, I figured that sunday would be prime...until I realized I would be spending it with the future in-laws instead. As in impulsive person, I had really set my mind to doing the loop that weekend, so I figured I would just go do it anyway...at night.

I arrived at Lincoln Woods, and finished throwing my food for the night in my pack: a bag of Raisinets, an entire tin of cashews, a bottle of Gatorade, a Redbull in case things got ugly, and a 32 oz Nalgene. I planned to only refill water once, at Garfield Ridge, where the water is awesome without a filter.


Shoes on, short shorts on, pack on, and GO! It was 7:15. Some dude looked at me from his car, and said,"You're starting late aren't ya? Where are you going?" I told him I was going all the way around. He looked at me with what was either disbelief or disapproval. Either way, I didn't care. I was amped to get on the trail and get to the suffering.

Deciding that I wanted to walk Franconia Ridge as the sun was rising, I opted to go counter-clockwise, hitting the Bonds first. On the long, boring, and flat Wilderness Trail, I came upon several people walking out of the woods. Once on Bondcliff Trail, I saw no one until I neared the top of Mt. Bond. He was a cool guy and we chatted for a while; he was working on his "4000 foot list in the dark". I didn't know that was even a thing.



As I came to the top of Bond, it was pushing 10 o clock and very dark. A small crescent moon provided me with little light. I was startled when my headlight shone on a body laying on the ground. Someone thought it would be a good idea to just bivvy up on the side of the trail, above tree-line. The wind was really whipping. I wondered why in the hell he'd want to do that, when things were so calm just a couple hundred yards down the trail, in the woods. He didn't move or open his eyes, and I continued on in silence...headphones blaring Pantera. Hitting the West Bond Spur, it wasn't a question of whether or not I would take it. Sure it's an offshoot of the loop, but I wasn't about to just blast past, and I had extra time. West Bond was a cool little bump, and the clear night and moon hanging in the sky made it an awesome spot to chill and eat.



Up and over Mt. Guyot, the wind was unreal...to the point that it was a little nerve wracking. I had to hold my hat on, and my feet mid-step were being blown, causing me to trip over myself. I looked in the sky and reminded myself that there were no clouds, hence no storms. Just wind. At night sometimes, things that don't bother you during the day can get into your head!

Hitting the Twinway, on the trail towards South Twin, I started feeling froggy, and broke into a run. That section of trail isn't super technical and kind of rolls, so I just flowed until the top of South Twin. On the way down, I hit my first tough spot mentally. As soon as I went below the trees, I sat on a rock and ate the hell out of some cashews and raisinets- just shoveling it in, downed my Gatorade, and continued on. The moon was turning reddish.





The next stop was Garfield Ridge water source. I debated going up to the site and checking out my former place of living, but decided that at 1:30 in the morning, I wouldn't really see anything, and I would just be that creepy guy wandering around in the middle of the night amongst the tenters. I settled on just hanging out at the source, eating and downing my Red Bull, because I was feeling tired.


The trail between Garfield and Lafayette is my favorite. There are runnable sections, and technical sections that are just fun. I was kind of grooving on a high, so I ran a lot of it. The problem with highs is that they end.
At 3am, on the side of Lafayette, I was a mess. The wind was crazy, and my energy level was below zero. I know from other sleep deprivation pursuits that this time of night/morning is my bad time. In every multi-day event I do, the shit really hits the fan for me from 3:30am until the sun comes up. The sky was already getting lighter to the east, so I pressed on, knowing the sun would bring me back to life.




I sat in the lee of the wind behind a rock on Lincoln, eating and watching the sun rise over the mountains to the east.
For the first time in almost 2 hours, I started feeling good again, and began the descent to the lower mountains of Little Haystack, Liberty, and Flume. Passing by Little Haystack's "stealth" campsite, I smelled weed. Who the hell was smoking pot at this hour? I looked at my watch, and it was 4:25. These older hippy dudes really stuck to their 4:20. Waking up at this time to smoke is true commitment.


I ran/hiked everything I could all the way to Liberty, because since I had seen the sun rise, I was really ready to just get out of the woods and eat some real food....but ran into a really nice couple on that mountain, and chatted with them for a good 30 minutes. One of the things I love about hiking is meeting some really great people on the trail.


I departed from Liberty and blasted on up to Flume in about 20 minutes. The sun was really up now, and Lincoln and Lafayette were looking awesome. Now was my favorite part: the Osseo Trail. For the most part, this is a non-technical trail and not too steep at any point. It is perfect to stretch the legs and actually run all the way down to civilization. The sun was getting hot.

4.1 miles of running later, I hit the railroad bed, and it would be just 1.4 miles until I was back at the car. I opted to walk out, because I wanted a nice relaxing end to this thing.

Bleary eyed and well-worked, I sat in the car about 12 hours after I had started and decided that a McDonald's breakfast would be the perfect way to cap the morning. All I wanted was calories....disgusting, greasy, salty calories. The drive home was brutal. I wanted to keep nodding off, but stuck it out. Once home, the shower was bliss, and the sleep was deep.

A fantastic end to one day, and an awesome start to another: the Midnight Pemi.


krp

Monday, January 28, 2013

Gear Versus Fitness




I'm about to tell you something in regards to hiking that Backcountry.com, EMS, REI, and even the great North Face doesn't want you to hear.

Since the day they began their companies, they've been convincing you to buy shit you don't need. It's all just "stuff" that will either sit in your gear closet, or add unnecessary weight to your pack...and slow you down.

Yesterday on the trail, I passed a few people headed up Mt. Tom on a hard-packed super-highway trail. They had snowshoes, poles, very large packs, and were laboring immensely. As I ran by them in nothing but trail runners...note the word RAN by them, I asked where they were headed. The very nice people responded with, "Just Mt Tom. An easy day."
It didn't look like they were making it very easy on themselves.
A few hours later, after I had done Tom, Field, Willey, and Avalon, I passed them on their way down.

Be safe and prepared, but don't over think it. If you really want to improve your hiking experience, don't buy the new gadget. Get fit. Go faster. See more awesome stuff. And you won't be too tired to appreciate it, either.

During my days caretaking on Garfield Ridge, I watched people come in to my site after hiking from Liberty Springs 9ish miles away, hours after sunset, outside themselves with fatigue.
"What time did you leave Liberty this morning?"
"7am."

9 miles in 14 hours, and they were glad to be done. Repeat, glad to be done. If they were glad to be done, why in the hell were they even out there in the first place? Why not train a little bit, be done in 9 hours, and enjoy the experience?

One particular night after dark, a young teenager showed up. He said his Dad would be arriving much later because he was extremely tired. I hiked up and over Garfield towards Liberty, and found the man struggling to climb up a moderate incline near Garfield Pond. I took his pack(which weighed a ton) and hiked with him, arriving late at the site. He was grateful, and I was steaming. He put himself and his son in danger.

It stuck with me through the night, and the next morning I was still pissed. After coffee and morning radio, I decided to time trial from my site to Liberty Springs. I wanted to blow off some steam, and see how fast a fit person could do the hike. I power-hiked the steep sections, and ran the downhills and flats. Once I hit the top of Lafayette, I ran all the way to Liberty Springs. I do not remember the exact time, but it was well under 2 hours. On the way back, I took my time in 3 hours.

The saying is Hike Your Own Hike. I understand this. But why do you need all of the extra shit? How can anyone that truly loves the woods and mountains argue with this math:

Carry Less+High Fitness Level=See more mountains, streams, wildlife, scenery.

Spend all of those extra hours worked to afford the gear... on training, instead!

Happy Trails!
krp